I Cannot Think Any Title For This Post

Ockay, this post is a real despo one. Well why not, March is going to the end in several days and I haven't make a post yet for this month. Well, apology for my absence, I am very busy right now, yes like a Prime Minister, I am busy.

Comes March, I had been focusing a lot in developing my software for final year project. Too bad to be good, I am using Codeblocks for developing my C language program and I was building for the Petri Net monitoring system programs. And praise to Allah I already manage to finish the software development and now I need to find out how to interface my programs with the hardware. So far I am ahead of my schedule and I am happy with the progress. (Actually this writing is part of my speech where I practice for the interview sessions , hehe)

Now comes April. 1st April, usually there are people out there who likes to make pranks on this day. Before it is too late, I want to share a story, I remember last year, I made a prank to a girl, turns out the joke is really sensitive, a hard one, I made her cry. Then after that we never being good to each other again. I feel like the most horrible man living on this planet. The point here is, it is okay if a prank or more is done, but don't over do it. Please, consider others first before launching the naughty inside you. I am talking from the experience here so hopefully somebody understands this. And for this year, I think there will be no prank from me. **serik**

#1 Request [Tentang Kebahagiaan Seorang Foreveralone]

Now the request has come in. It's from the nufa. She asked me how happy am I right now. Well it can be explained by combining Heroic's request also. This guy asked me during our chatting and he told me to write about forever alone.

So, what is forever alone? Forever alone ni lebih kurang sunyi selamanya, hidup keseorangan, member lepak bawak awek kita datang sorang2, haa tu la definisi kecil pasal forever alone ni. Al maklum laa, sekarang ni dah dekat musim mengawan, semua topik perbualan berkisar kat situ jekk, tarikh keramat 14 Febuari semakin dekat, tak sabar sabar ditunggu tiba. Tak percaya ni musim mengawan? Haa tunggu la lagi 9 bulan tengok berape ramai baby kena buang nanti. Jadi sebab aku selalu sangat lepak dengan Heroic ni pergi sorang2, kekadang bawak member laki jekk pergi sekali. Kadang kadang tu, Heroic bawak awek, sorang lagi member aku Schomey pun bawak awek jugak, tinggal laa aku sorang2 melihat telatah mereka bermanja.

Ada la jugak selalunya kalau aku melepak dengan budak2 Neo ni, kalau pergi je mana2, mesti la member2 ni bawak awek jugak. pergi konvoi jauh2 diorang ade awek nak teman menghibur hati dalam kete. Aku? Aku bukak radio bahasa cina pastu duk mengulang orang cina tu bercakap walaupon satu jadah pun aku tak paham. At least ada laa jugak benda aku nak bercakap, iye dak?

Tapi selalunya, usually lah kan. Bila datang je waktu2 valentine's day ni, ramai la manusia2 forever alone ni naik runsingnya. Mane tak runsing beb, pergi je mana2 ada laa promosi valentine's day tuh. Alaa, bukan runsing pon, rimas mencekik je. Macaam la aku tadi, ada la member ni ajak keluar, nak beli barang katenye. Okay la, weekend kan, keluar la kami ni pergi lah mana2 shopping mall. Sampai je mall tu member aku ni beritahu dia ada ajak member die jugak datang, aku no prob la kan, dua jantan nak jalan bersame memang tak pernah ngam kena la ramai skeet baru havoc. Tapi member gua ni buat taik, hampeh punya budak, rupanya member yang dia ajak tu awek dia daa. Dah tu kalo awek dia ade, tak kan la aku nak menyelit sekali gak kan, nanti aku tak nak jadi pihak ketiga antara diorang tu, sebab pihak ketiga tu syaiton! And then aku blah lah kan, geli jugak aku tengok telatah mereke duk bermanja (bukan dengki eyy).

Lalu bermula la episod forever alone aku kat shopping mall di ambang Vday. Berjalan la aku sorang2, pergi je setiap ceruk memang banyak la sales tentang hari kekaseh ni. Pantangg aku jalan sikit, ade la promoter tanya "Bang hensem, tak hendak beli ke hadiah untuk awek, Vday dekat dah ni." Haa lebih kurang macam tu la ayat dia. Aku sengih jelah. Kalao aku masuk kedai baju duk usha2 baju, ade jugak mangkuk salesperson ni duk tanya, beli untuk awek ke? Ish aku rase nak cepuk je miinah tu, aku duk belek baju laki (untuk aku la kan) ade ke patut aku cari untuk awek aku, aku bukan gay doe nak beli baju untuk laki time Vday plak tuh!

Last2 perot dah lapar dah, aku call la member aku ajak makan, dia kate set je tadak hal, member kitorang yang lain yang secare kebetulan ada jugak kat situ nak join makan jugak. So skang ada 2 couple, aku sorang. Jadi pergilah kami ke restoran yang agak romantik di tengah2 shopping mall tuh. Aku pnah pegi restoran ni dulu, makanan memang banyak tak hengat laa dalam 1 set tuh dan sebab makanan banyak ni la aku dah start menyirap sket. 2 couple tu best la diorang share makanan, happy je makan2 bergurau senda, kutuk aku tak laku la, makan cuap cuap, damn! Aku pulak, naik merah mata aku duk cobe perabeh makanan tuh. Taknak perabeh kang , mende mahal, aku sayang duit aku woo.

Abes makan, abeh gelak tawa, aiseh, enset aku plak abeh battery, tapi diorang taknak balik lagi. Tak puas bermesra lagi tuu, nak main ice skating pulaak (aiseh kantoi sudah nama tempat shopping mall bila sebut ice skating nih). Nak bermesra punya pasal, perut penoh pon xde hal la nak skating2 nih. Takpe lah, aku biarkan jelah diorang, kang kate aku dengki pulak (T.T). Aku pon pergi la Machines pegi charge ipong aku kjap. Sambil2 tengah charge tu aku belek2 ipad, tak menarek pooon.

Pastu aku bukak main la pulak macbook diorang, memang best la kan, cam biase la. Pastu aku bukak safari, aku type url blog aku, kot2 ade orang lain bukak bleh la bace blog aku kan? HAHAHAHA. Haa, yang suka berniaga online tu bleh la ye guna pakai idea ni, g kedai komputer mana2, bukak komputer diorang, tulis url bisnes korang, kot2 ada rezeki ada la bisnesnye. Lepas dah bukak blog aku kat macbook tu, bila pikir2 lame lagi ni diorang nak abes ber-enjoy, then aku amek la kesempatan tu untuk menulis post ini. Korang percaye tak yang post ni ditulis time duk machine ni laa. Kasihan aku kan, lama punya tunggu member dating, siap boleh buat blog post lagi.

Haa, amacam story aku? Rasa rasanya apa perasaan orang foreveralone ni? Sedih ke, tersisih ke, picisan kecil ke? Haa yang tu korang interpret sendiri lah ape perasaan manusia2 jenis foreveralone nih. Tapi perasaan aku pulak macam mana? Aku tak pernah rasa aku ni foreveralone, tapi ramai je member2 duk kate begitu.

Haa, moh kite menjawab soalan sedari nufa tentang kebahagiaan saya di waktu ini.

**Ahem**

Well, the story above is actually 50% inaccurate and I will let your powerful mind decide which 50% part of the story is true. Well it happened but not all. Mostly the story is for the joking purpose only, that's why it is written in Malay because I feel stupid when I speak Malay. So how do I feel now? If you're active forumer in lowyat.net, you'll know how sad a foreveralone creatures are. People say I am foreveralone type. But I strongly believe I am not foreveralone.

I like my lifestyle now. I socialized too, a lot but controllable. If others like to spend money for their lover, I like to spend it on my car. If other's weekend was boring and they solve it by having their date with their partner, I stay at home and read storybooks, play games at home the whole weekend. While others like to show off their aweks or balaks, but for me I do feel proud hanging out with my friends. Others like praise how perfect and beautiful or handsome their partner, well, I just can't stop admiring myself LOL>. I have nothing to worry of being single all my life and interestingly somehow people around me can't stop worrying of why I never be able to end up the single status streak. So as for now, I can say I am tremendously happy of what I have now. I enjoy friends' hang out, I declare my car as my wife, if people told me to get a life I laid my car. So there's nothing to regret of being happy as I am now.

Look, life ain't about love only, there's something bigger than love. Vday is just a crap business plan you know. Look how blooming the gift shop at these days. People are hunting for presents just because they can't afford to miss the so called special day. Don't ask me out on this day because I'll be singing Deftones! Yeah!

Well if there is anything else you want me to story about me or about my cute car or anything else, you can proceed at this link.

What's On Your Me?

Seriously, I don't have a clue at all to babble right now. So, maybe you can help me writing. Tell me of anything that you want to know from me and I'll make your request as my next posts. Seriously talking here.

January yo!

Oh here I am again, trying so hard to make a post every month just because I have made my promise to update this blog once a month. Like a faithful person, well here I am. So this post is for January post. January, hmm when it comes to January, people will think about new year. At this time, they will usually rethink about what they had done in the year before and making their own new year’s resolution. Well that’s a good thing as it makes you into a better person for each year. But sadly, the resolution only works for maybe around 3 weeks only, later up they’ll end up becoming the person which had come the year before that.

As for me, when it comes January, usually I don’t make my resolution, if I had, it is only for the purpose of bragging and show off just because I don’t want to left behind. Not to say making a resolution is out of time or resolution is only for those who likes of dreaming, it is only because making new year’s resolution is not working for me. January is the month where I could only think about my birthday. Yeah, I’m marking my own birthday, how pathetic I am right, but if there anyone who doesn’t did it? Well on my birthday, I’m not only thinking about my last year’s achievement, I’m reflecting my whole life’s experiences.

2011, now I am becoming 23 years old. Some may expect at this age sure this person must have been very matured and grown up, but I can confess, I am not reaching up to that expectation yet. Sure nobody at my age goes to mcD and buys a happy meal and plays the free toys alone but it still happened to me, owh how lonely I am, but heey, it feels good man. At 23, I never expect anybody to buy me a birthday present for me, well of course I am not, and who would buy me the presents? But again, my father did give me a present, he bought me an iPohne4 yo! Guess how happy I am of getting that phone, credits to my father for loving me unconditionally. I am happy to be belong in my family, I am very grateful.

And I believe after 23 years of living, I have a lots of good friends around me. Thank God I am making more friends rather than making enemies, oh God forbid.

What I want to point out here is, though I’m leading a very simple life, I am still being happy. So, this is me at 23 year old. Hopefully when I am 24^th, I would turn into a better person.

Happy Birthday to me!

December Post

As usual, too lazy to make some updates and this one is for December post. Though I have something, many things to share but writing is never be as fun as before. In the past, when I want something to share, an issue to express, I would make a lot of sentences and write it up in this blog. But now, I always prefer twitting about anything, it needs not anything too elaborative to share what's on my mind. But as lazy as I am, tweeter also a bit abandoned lately. But tweeting is much more easier so I post my thoughts much at twitter rather than blogger.

So should I say blogging is way much backwards nowadays? Well compare to the enjoyment of blogging in the past and now, I can say blogging sure going dead sooner. Whatever it is, this blog I can say I will to keep it updated and alive as long as possible. (In before, I have a few blogs and after series of failed commitment I shut it down and opened up a new one.)

So here are some of my life's updated info (for those who miss me lar har har har).

1. I changed my rims again

2. Follow me on twitter, amir7474

3. My car is healthy

4. My studies going wrong (judged by comparing my result and friends)

5. Next month is my birthday

6. Oh I already bought the FIFA2011 game. If you play it online, add me up ->ame88

7. Malaysia wins the AFF Suzuki Cup, quite impressive!

8. Next semester is the last semester, good luck to everybody!

9. Already read 3 novels, but too lazy lazy lazy to share the stories. Later if get some times will share

Last but not least, I will try to go to your blog sooner or later and leave some comments. (I always been to everybody's blog and read only, later I'll post the comments).

For this coming 2011, I wish everybody another successful year and a great health!

This is how I get a life

If you believe there is a place in this world where you can be what ever that you want, trust me you won't find it. Hell, why bother to be something else if becoming you on your own is already a total misery? But if your world fails you, it is okay to dream about another world because dreaming is everybody's playground. But dreaming will never ever be a reality. I never find my dreams turn into reality, have you? So why takes your dreams so seriously. "Mimpi itu hanya mainan tidur".

I know this blog looks so mundane. Maybe for you, it's like a dream to see this blog to keep alive and updated. But for me, it feels like a dream to at last made an update. Life has been cruel for a while. It is a 'live or dead', 'take it or leave it', and 'what you give you get back' sort of life I am having right now and then. So usually, when life is hard, I thought, giving this lonely blog an update would help ease the burden for a little bit but it never works. The problems still need to be faced and nobody is ready.

But still I believe that this blog is the last chance for me to "get a life". Because this is the only way we are connected.

Fifa 2011 is all that I need

Oh my God, is it the internet is now a really really boring junk today? I’ve been on every websites I’ve bookmarked and there’s nothing to entertain me. Blog hopping is also not really helping because nobody is updating theirs.

I know, my own blog is a boring blog too, even I myself did not know what to do every time I am here. This place should be bomb someday, I think.

All that I want now is the FIFA 2011 and a new gamepad replacement. I really really need them now but financial constraint and the final examination is around the corner already, I just need to postponed it. Duuugh, but it doesn’t helping at all. Everday I went to LYN just to read everybody is excited playing FIFA 2011 and everday I dreamt about Saitek gamepad. Oh God, help me!

Okay, that’s it for the first update in October

Men from the Boys, Selamat Hari Raya

Yeay, Selamat Hari Raya to everybody. When others complaining raya is not for them anymore, raya never been too lame nor too boring for me, I LIKE RAYA! Haha. Well, after a week, raya is okay and good. Still got some duit raya, nothing different from the past. For those who think that their age affect their raya mood then I'm sorry, you just did not know how to enjoy your raya.

During this raya also I had finished a novel from my no.1 author, Tony Parson. The book is ‘Men From the Boys’. Well the novel is the sequel to the ‘Man and Boy’ and ‘Man and Wife’ which I’ve read like 5 years ago. So as usual, Tony Parson really writes about men’s life, about our (men) challenges to face the reality in relationship, in our job, in parenting and everything about our past and of course, I like it and I take his story as very true.

Spoiler Alert!! (Been a while since my very last review on novels, I’ll try)

Well in this book, Harry the main character of the story is a divorcee and has a son from the previous marriage and now living with a new wife with a step daughter from the wife and a new daughter of theirs. And I pictured Harry as a loser in marriage and parenting. Since the book is about the relationship between men and boys, between father and son here I would like to focus on the son, Pat 15 years old. Both Pat and Harry were in hard times driven from various factors such as Pat’s mother, the school, the Pat’s growing up stuff and Harry is jobless has putted his marriage under strain his family is isolating him.

Well Harry’s situation can be seen as the worst situation of any father in this world want to be into. He is jobless, his second marriage is ruining, his son hates him and the worst is he missed his dead parents. And Tony Parson successfully create a character which helps Harry to overcome this problem and helps Harry see this life correctly and I don’t want to spoil more, Harry manage to regain his family’s trust back. Who is the character which helps him, you read it by your own effort lah.

And being a man now, though I celebrate raya like a boy, I knew that life is not about enjoying at all times. Sometimes I take my parents’ feeling so easily. There are several times, many times actually I failed them and sometimes I did not have that guilty feeling about it though I know I am guilty, but the feelings were not straight from the heart. Harry in the story has many things that he regretted about his dead parents and I too has many things that I’ve regretted. And in this raya luckily we have that tradition of seeking forgiveness from everybody especially from our parents. And after a week of Syawal, still I didn’t do that ‘forgiveness hunting’ from my parents. Am I a sinner? I hope not. Well raya like a boy la kan?

After a man dies, he leaves everything in this world except 3 things. These things will help him gain him pahala (rewards in religion) when he dies. That would be

1. His usable knowledge and being used until the afterworld.

2. His charity during his life

3. His children who will always doing good kinds towards others and who will always pray for their parent’s peacefulness.

So for those who have lost either their mother or father or both, Islam teaches us to always pray for their peaceful at ‘there’ and all of our kind doings will also be rewarded to our parents. Al-Fatihah~

And for everybody out there who knows me, Selamat Hari Raya. I seek for everybody’s forgiveness and of course, yours too had been forgiven, don’t worry, lol.

100th Post-versary

It's September already, Friday, 3/9/2010. Now at McD Sec 14, PJ with Mr. Schomey. Aah, what a day to relax. Saturday will be the day when I will be driving home for Raya celebration. And now, I am proudly want to announce that I am assignment-free. Yes, I'll be going home for Raya without any assignment need to be done within the holiday. Thank God I was so rajin to complete them all. Oh yeah, MERDEKA MERDEKA MERDEKA!

And now, I am also very proud to inform that this is my 100th post for this blog. After about 2 and a half years being active and half active in blogging, I can say this is my biggest blog I ever have. Thanks to those who had always come and read at my blog. And not to forget for every friendship that had started from this blog, everybody is appreciated.

ps/ this 100th post was reminded by a very thoughtful Mr. Schomey. (tak gay kan ayat nih? haha)

Update

In my blog, I want you to see on your left side, at the post counting. See every month counting? Yeap, every month except on May, I only manage to update this blog twice per month. In May, I was at home and most of the time I am quite free, so that’s why explain the differences. Well before this post is made, trust me, I am very very wanted to update the blog, in continuing the 2posts per month count and now I guessed I succeed already. What can I say, I am a busy student.

And now, I am still busy as usual and counting days to go back to Kelantan for Raya. Before holiday, I have 3 assignments that need to pass and currently only 1 had completed. And now, I don’t have anything to write, so this is it, the second post for August. Selamat Hari Merdeka!

God Gives You Meat, so Eat!

Everyone here knows that I have a big problem with cats. Cats and I will never ever have a close and peace relationship. Some of my friends say I am afraid to cats. Well, I am not afraid of cats, I just happened not to like cat which means I don’t like to touch cats, be near with cats and stare into each other. Well that’s just another excuse to make myself looks braver and manly haha the truth is yes, I am afraid of cats.

Another truth is, I don’t like fluffy and flurry things such as cats, rabbits, and even teddy bears (don’t dream I’ll buy you these things including the teddy bears okay?). Every time I touch that kind of materials I’ll be like, vomiting, high, dizzy, uneasy, and bla bla bla just to say that I don’t like it!

But these feelings never make me an anti-animal or racist towards animals as some people suggest. I love animal, I just can’t be with it. And to be frank I’ll never love animal the way some people did such as build a care centre for unlucky animals, the world needs that funds for better purpose. For me, the only way I can show my love and passions towards animals is by eating them. Yes that’s the reason why God creates animals so that we eat them. Refusing to eat meats (vegetarians) is like refusing to take the God’s rahmat. People need meats, so don’t stop hunting and eating animals. Of course we don’t eat cats, that’s too harsh and cats are cute right?

And I can say vegetarians are unlucky people in this world because they missed the most valuable gifts from God to us. Well, they didn’t miss it, they refusing it, what a jerk!

And speaking about eating, we all know this is Ramadan already so I wish everyone who read my blog to have a good month of ibadah and hope what is good can be carry on throughout our life. God bless you!

I Will Stop ..... Shisha-ing

After two weeks, my car is now already in a good condition, a very superb condition. The brakes, the hood, the rims, the absorber all had been changed into more responsive and better quality one. Well I did those not because I just want to change it, but because they all were broken. Some just need a small repair while there are several that need to be change. And it had been a tough time for me to ride the car in that condition, well I can say the car is not on its standard when everything is not solved yet. Before everything was fixed, to get a 120kmph is a suffer and quite dangerous I can say, well the car become not so stable. Been trying to reach more than 120 recently with full load in the car and I can say better not doing it. For those who I’ve secretly made you involved in my speed experiment, sorry to say and thank you for being so quiet during the rough and tension trip, hehe, by the way, thanks. About the speed experiment, well I need to do it just to gain certain unexplained experiences. Hehe, that’s what a racer did actually, push the car to its limit and adjust it to get a better performance.

For two weeks I had been back and forth to the workshop and seeing my baby car being touched, knocked, inspected and ride by unknown person in that workshop is not an easy feeling. Imagine your loved one being touch by someone else, that’s what I feel about my car. I hate them touching my car and not being selfish, I am really grateful to them because treating and repairing my car very well and so quick. (Though at first I’ve lost my trust towards them because they need my help to open up the front bumper, what a noob!)

Taking care of a broken and sick car can be quite tiring and need a lot of money. Imagine what if I need to take care of a sick pperson, I just don’t know how to handle it. Okay, I try to imagine what if I got sick, sure it will be pain in the ass for any person in this world to take care of me, God please give me a good health, I don’t want to get sick. Seeing sick people for two months during internship made me appreciate life better (I think so la). So, it made me realize, I need to stop enjoying shisha. Well some people said shisha-ing is not as dangerous as smoking but for me I belief the risk is not worth taking.

Several weeks ago, while I was lepak-ing at Hartamas (there is a good place for shisha-ing there), as usual, shisha is a must. I inhale, I breath thick smokes, well what a good pleasure to have. My favourite would be the one that can makes you dizzy, a pleasure! But I know it is not good, getting dizzy on purpose is harem as well as getting drunk using alcoholic consumption. And before this I had a lot of bad experience with shisha, vomiting is usual several times when a very strong shisha involved.

So from now on, committing to get a better life and a good health, I wish to stop and restraing myself from consuming shisha. Even if I will shaking when I smell shisha from other tables, I won’t at all buy shisha. This is my promise to the world, I am quitting, this is it, thank you for reading!

LIfe is On

Hi everyone, just to say that I’ve completed my training last week and all I can say is it’s awesome. I’ve learnt a lot there and I’ve appreciate everybody that I’ve met there. They all will be missed and remembered.

Now it had been a week already I am in Shah Alam, back to school. Well there’s nothing much to share as there is nothing much happen between this post and the one before this one, it is just I’ve already submitted my report, ON TIME, I’m awesome!

Just to share with everybody that my friend, mankeropok (he writes stupid humor stories and do enjoy his blog) and I found this super delicious burger outlet in Damansara Utama like 5 months ago and we’ve been a very hard die fans of them. The name of this highly regards restaurant is Darabif and according to the cashier they have another outlets in Sri Hartamas and Bangsar, never been there so I don’t know where it is. Well if you know Damansara Uptown I’m sure there will be no problem in finding this restaurant because, well it is just in Damansara Uptown nothing smaller than this place, and should be reminded that is is NOT UPTOWN DAMANSARA ok, it is Damansara Uptown.

About the taste, well it is seriously delicious that the beef is so juicy you can feel and smell the aroma of the beef and you think the cow still alive. Haha, kidding, but the point is, I want to say that umm, this restaurant can offer you tastier and super duper delicious burger compare to other fast food outlets such as McD and BK especially. Even their meat is thicker and softer and no doubt aaargghhhhh, super delicious I can tell you. Like seriously I’ve been to this outlet since last semester (and I am still going) and no doubt, they are still the best. And it is proudly own by a Malaysian. If you want to go there, go early as they close at 10pm, what a lame.