This Is For Everybody

One of my new year resolution is to get my blog keeps updated. Now it is almost April and my resolution is having a gloomy future. Everything about my new year's resolution is getting into failure day by day. My blog, my life, my study, my family's hope towards me, everything is in uncertain.

Nothing is certain in this life, but at least we can plan our life and I still fail to plan my life.

Blogging is one of the most enjoyable thing I had done in my life. Everyday, I used to visit other's blog, my mind is always thinking what is next to update, my mind is full of ideas. I used to love blogging and now, I just loveD blogging.

But now blogging is not my priority anymore. If in the past my mind used to thinking about blogging, but today it is not anymore. I have something new in my life to think about. Yes, this thing is really enjoyable. This is my first time in my life. Yes, this is really my first time and I'm afraid. lol. But things still in gloomy state. "SHE" confessed, but I'm so young, I'm so naive, I am so flattered, so I said, 'relax'. But I always think about her.

Love is taking over blogging in my life. But love is something I never want to be certain. She wants love but I want to get laid don't have love in me.

This is what currently happened to me in this few days, few weeks ago. So this explain why updating is so rare right now. (Ape kaitan eh ngan aku tak update? macam xde kaitan, aah biarlah)

This is a Joke, I am So Hot

Malaysia, a country where I can say a little bit moving backwardly. After 53 years of independent, after hundreds of years being ruled by Westerners, there is a thing that I am not satisfy with Malaysia.

Yesterday, today, the coming days, the weather is hot. Yesterday, I didn't stop sweating and changed my clothes for 4 times. I bathed for many many many times. Today,I didn't change that much clothes because there will be no more clothes for tomorrow. The day just getting hotter with this guy. Seriously, he has no life, that's whyhe never gets LD.

But the point of this post is, I am really dissapointed with Malaysia is because we still don't have snow in our land. Call me crazy or what. All i want is snow! Malaysian shouldrealize that we've been cheated the whole life. We need to revolt our way of life. Hot and humid climate is not relevant nowadays since the thinning of atmosphere. People, let's call for a change, push our Government to turn our climate into four season climates.

PS/ this post isjust for fun, I'm just kidding. So desperate to make some update since there is demand for it. To Malaysia, don't sue me. Hehehe

Story of Their Life

Recently, there are too many posts I've read about feelings, about love, about hardness going through life without the special one, especially from this guy and this guy. Well just like a man turns into a wolf when the moon are shining, I don't know if any places out there, the 12 planets in our galaxy made a straight line and turn my friends into a sadden and heart throbbing creature. Maybe life is too hard for them.

But my life is never easy on me too. Not to blame my friend's post about how gloomy this life is, I too had gone into a phase when my heart was throbbed, my mind unsettled, and things never going right for days. It happens not because of girls are ruining my life, hell no. My life is different with my friend's who I mentioned earlier. While they was sadden with their life, I was sad with other's life, when they were happily going out with our teacher back at MRSM, I was suffered at Gombak area in some place called Pondok Penyayang Raudhah. Well, story of their life, begins.

Last 6th February, I was following my housemate's class from other faculty into their charity event at that place. Well, at first I was told it was the place for the orphans, but when I was there, they are also hosting the single mother and the problematic teenage. The objective of the trip is to entertained the people there like doing some activities that helps to motivate them and gotong royong stuff.

When I was there, I pitied them. Not to pity why they were there, well I think they were there for good reasons. But I pity them because of the place they are living. It is too bad to be good. My rented house back in Shah Alam was way so much comfortable compared to theirs. They were lacked of so many facilities such as a place for a good sleep, to have a good meal, to study in a very comfortable environment, to have your body bathed in clean and tapped water, well they don't have any of these. When I was into their hostel, and entering their toilet, I saw this kid, a small kid, tough kid, brushing his clothes. Screech screech, screech, so faithfully brushing off the dirt. When I was that age, my dad still doing my laundry.

If the kid was sent by their parent because they can't help changing their children's bad behavior, well I think that is okay because the kid will only living there for a while. But try to imagine if there is a baby who was raised there and lived there, and face the truth that is their home, well I can't imagine that. I feel terrible for any children who was raised in that kind of place. I can't imagine if I was destined to live there, can I survive? I don't think I can. This trip really affects me, even days after that trip, I always think about them. Even when I want to do something the people of lifestyle of the rich and famous did, the mood will gone whenever their fate crossing my mind.

But going to that place also marks the lowest point of my life. I have done something that terribly affects my credibility. This kind of shame is greater compared to the shame when someone noticed you are not zipping your pants. Well, now, the story of my life. Everybody that closed to me knows that am afraid of cats, right? well, I never feels weird telling people I am afraid of cats, but I am most embarrassed when I reacted when cats are 'attacking' me. What happens there is, when I was at that place and listening their ustaz's lecture, well I don't bother to listen and read an pamphlet. I was very very very focused on the article when I was looking in front, there, standing (or sitting?) a cat, looking at me and I was shocked, and I jumped and attracts everybody's attention, and the cat was walking towards me, and there, there it is the most part, I hugged my friend just like a girl hugging a man when she saw a cockroaches. Can you imagine that? God that was so embarrassed! Everybody laughs. The lecturer laughs. The kids there laugh. I was a laughing stock for the whole day.

My story of lowest point in my life.

PS/ I am sorry if anybody of you who read this had lived there or any place like that and I sound like "what-the-hell-with-this-guy", I never mean to be rude by lowering your class and status of your living place, but to show that I am concerned with your hardness and difficulties. I hope anybody who lives in this kind of place will do well in their current life and their after life too.

Happy Chinese New Year

And this update this specially made for my beowolf beloved friends, Heroic and Mr. Schomey. And that's it, just an update. Kwang kwang kwang kwang

Update

It is been 3 weeks already since the new semester began and I still don't have that loads of assignments and anything to keep me busy. I already finished reading two story books and finished watching a Korean drama and life is still dull and boring. Nothing hectic happens to me so far and it is way way too boring here. And if this continues, my 2010 resolution of gaining better results compared to 2009 will goes down into the drain because I will lost the momentum (well, currently in highly spirits and very motivational to study and what a waste if there is nothing to do). But for sure, in my 6th semester, I decided to majoring in Instrumentation Industry for my studies.

Well, from the beginning of my life in UiTM, I actually decided to roll in Electronic field just because I wrote in my school's biography that I wanted to be an Electronic Engineering, but things doesn't and never going as what we had planned, right? It is not because I am not good in Electronic that I decided not to roll in, well I am good at it actually but I decided not to bound my life to what I had wrote in 2005's school book. Besides, I lost interest in Electronics due to a reason that will not be revealed here. So, I took the Instrumentation Industry. I don't know what it is and 3 weeks already I still don't get the pictures of what am I learning so far. What to expect in this field? Well, I don't know that too.

And last 20th January is my 22nd birthday, thanks to everybody for the wishes and prays and gifts and treats too. And not to forget to my house mates who celebrate it the traditional way of throwing the flour after the football game, it really stickied to my body and hairs. Thanks all. And surprisingly, most of the wishes that I got said "hope all of your dreams and wishes come true". Well, what is that? I don't remember if the wishes years before were something like this too, but if it always being like this, well it is like telling you that your dreams and wishes will only be dreams and wishes, they never get into reality. Well it is so true actually, I never have my dreams come true. Not because I dream big, but because I don't have the 'kick' to make it into reality. Anyhow, all of the wishes are still the best present and whatever wishes they are, they made my day. But I hate disagreed when people telling me this, "22 years old and never tastes love, Happy Birthday" (well sort of like that lah), well it makes me feels like I am having a problem with my social life and of course I am not. I am just happy the way I am now and not having a girlfriend is never an issue to me because I am not anyone else who thinks life is lonely without a partner and I think otherwise. And again, thanks for all of the wishes, everybody is great!

Hope For A Better Year

Like it or not, 2009 leaves us all in many ways we all never wanted it to be. I love seeing 2009 passed and hope 2010 can offer me better. Well, for me, everything in 2009 is not going very well. For both semester in 2009. I got my PNG going down, well it is always going up during 2007-2008. I know it is lame blaming the years for my downturn, but I hope it motivates me to do better than yester-year.

But, 2009 brought me seeing many great and famous people around Malaysia (yeah, Malaysia only, don't have chances to going out). Making friends also great during 2009, I make a lot of good buddies during the time. [Sorry la Safwan pasal member2 ko, aku harap 2010 ko jumpe member2 yg best dan cool nnti. Haha] Most of new friends I made are within the Neo's club. Well, why not, I've been into 3 clubs already and the second one is the best ever experienced. And I hope 2010 will brings me into knowing more fellows at the faculty. Well I am most sucks knowing people at classes, I don't know why.And I hope blogging will be much better in 2010. Compare my post in 2008 and 2009, how it decreased so much~

So, as for the preparation to enjoy for the whole 2010, I had bought myself a camera. Well, it is a Lomo type and I get a Holga 135BC only. Hmm, it is always my dream to own a camera but the technology sucks my dreams away. Since the creation of DSLR type, camera is never any cheaper. all priced at the blood sucking range (I quoted a good and a high end quality camera, so it is expensive, who cares to buy the not so quality one?). So, after getting a lomo, I assume my childrenhood's dream came into reality now. So, why not click HERE. I created a flickr for my pictures and to share with my friends and currently only one roll of film had been developed, others will coming soon. If you want to buy one, it is cheap, really cheap. Ask me if you don't know where to get it because I've already joined a lomo's society. Hehe.

Well, Happy New Year everybody! Have fun!

ps/ so much hope had been poured for 2010 and it is only 1st of January, I'm freaking out now if I can do it or not.

Not A Rock Not Yet A Diamond

Few days ago (actually it is not just few days ago, I frequently visited his page but few days before are too boring so whenever I am online, I was there.. haha), I was sticking to Paultan's blog, he is an active automotive writer. He writes about cars all over the world and he is Malaysian and of course he writes about Proton and Perodua too. And I am more into his Proton's writings, not because I own one, well I like reading about Proton and despite everybody's doubts and hating towards roton, surprisingly, there are still many of them are eager to know and have an updates about Proton .

Surprisingly, Proton has gone beyond more than I know. They have built their own engines which is the CamPro and CPS, starting to develop the electric vehicle technology, the still under development hybrid system, our own turbocharged engine!!!, the first national MPV, and a very highly regards the MEM Proton Satria Neo Super 2000 rally car(weeewwiit!!). Well, look at that! Look how much Proton had moved. See the differences at their early years when our first national car, Proton Saga was rebadge from the Mitsubishi technology of Japan and their current achievement at global stage? Proton now and then has improve so much in less than 30 years, well I just can't help proud of the national car.

But too bad, so sad there are still people out there who are still bashing and hantam the Proton as if Proton never change from 20 years ago. These people are demanding more from Proton. They want Proton to be fast at least can beat the Type R, they want the quality to be like the BMW or Merc, and there are some idiot out there who likes to compare Proton with other highly regards manufacturer such as Audi, Bently, or Jaguar. Well, comparing is good, but at least let it be on par la. They want good things from Proton but want a teh O kurang gula price. Some people going very good about saying not to proud driving a national car and die in it due to lack of confidence in safety measures, so 'stereotyper'. I hate these people (especially the Japanese car fan wannabe), if they have much money, okay that's good, go make your own car and have fun.

Well, these people forget why the Proton was built at first place. They forget about the low class family in Malaysia who can't afford a pricey car. I believed Proton now is in the right path for success. The reason they build such 'not so quality' cars is because to make sure that they can target every economical based classes in Malaysia.People in Proton has a business mind and they cannot leave the poor but need a car rakyat. Imagine what if Proton doing all of these fast and highly quality where when you crash into a lorry carrying cows and the car did not split into two, I don't think my grandfather could afford to buy his new Proton Saga BLM yesterday everybody can afford it. And I hope Proton would never in their mind to produce any fast car because as we all know Malaysian drivers are reckless and immature in driving. Worst, try to imagine if there is no Proton. What would happen if Proton is never here. Imagine those foreign manufacturer came and selling their cars at high prices because they knew, without local cheap cars, they can selling their products higher and their accessories also will be tag at a car cost. Foreign monopoly is not healthy to our economy, it is way dangerous.

Anyway, yes I do agree Proton are still much backward compare to other manufacturer, they still need to make changes. They still have many problems to counter. What I can hope is they do a lot more R&D, try to make everything cheaper especially their after sales service, and still being competitive and relevant. They are not shining like a diamond yet but in the future I believed they will shine and they never be like they were 20 years back when producing a tin milo car. Well, at least there are no more power window and gear box problems like we have heard before, but if there is any, it is minimum compared to years ago. But still as a Malaysian, do not condemn the them, support them and be proud to have a national car manufacturer.