#1 Request [Tentang Kebahagiaan Seorang Foreveralone]

Now the request has come in. It's from the nufa. She asked me how happy am I right now. Well it can be explained by combining Heroic's request also. This guy asked me during our chatting and he told me to write about forever alone.

So, what is forever alone? Forever alone ni lebih kurang sunyi selamanya, hidup keseorangan, member lepak bawak awek kita datang sorang2, haa tu la definisi kecil pasal forever alone ni. Al maklum laa, sekarang ni dah dekat musim mengawan, semua topik perbualan berkisar kat situ jekk, tarikh keramat 14 Febuari semakin dekat, tak sabar sabar ditunggu tiba. Tak percaya ni musim mengawan? Haa tunggu la lagi 9 bulan tengok berape ramai baby kena buang nanti. Jadi sebab aku selalu sangat lepak dengan Heroic ni pergi sorang2, kekadang bawak member laki jekk pergi sekali. Kadang kadang tu, Heroic bawak awek, sorang lagi member aku Schomey pun bawak awek jugak, tinggal laa aku sorang2 melihat telatah mereka bermanja.

Ada la jugak selalunya kalau aku melepak dengan budak2 Neo ni, kalau pergi je mana2, mesti la member2 ni bawak awek jugak. pergi konvoi jauh2 diorang ade awek nak teman menghibur hati dalam kete. Aku? Aku bukak radio bahasa cina pastu duk mengulang orang cina tu bercakap walaupon satu jadah pun aku tak paham. At least ada laa jugak benda aku nak bercakap, iye dak?

Tapi selalunya, usually lah kan. Bila datang je waktu2 valentine's day ni, ramai la manusia2 forever alone ni naik runsingnya. Mane tak runsing beb, pergi je mana2 ada laa promosi valentine's day tuh. Alaa, bukan runsing pon, rimas mencekik je. Macaam la aku tadi, ada la member ni ajak keluar, nak beli barang katenye. Okay la, weekend kan, keluar la kami ni pergi lah mana2 shopping mall. Sampai je mall tu member aku ni beritahu dia ada ajak member die jugak datang, aku no prob la kan, dua jantan nak jalan bersame memang tak pernah ngam kena la ramai skeet baru havoc. Tapi member gua ni buat taik, hampeh punya budak, rupanya member yang dia ajak tu awek dia daa. Dah tu kalo awek dia ade, tak kan la aku nak menyelit sekali gak kan, nanti aku tak nak jadi pihak ketiga antara diorang tu, sebab pihak ketiga tu syaiton! And then aku blah lah kan, geli jugak aku tengok telatah mereke duk bermanja (bukan dengki eyy).

Lalu bermula la episod forever alone aku kat shopping mall di ambang Vday. Berjalan la aku sorang2, pergi je setiap ceruk memang banyak la sales tentang hari kekaseh ni. Pantangg aku jalan sikit, ade la promoter tanya "Bang hensem, tak hendak beli ke hadiah untuk awek, Vday dekat dah ni." Haa lebih kurang macam tu la ayat dia. Aku sengih jelah. Kalao aku masuk kedai baju duk usha2 baju, ade jugak mangkuk salesperson ni duk tanya, beli untuk awek ke? Ish aku rase nak cepuk je miinah tu, aku duk belek baju laki (untuk aku la kan) ade ke patut aku cari untuk awek aku, aku bukan gay doe nak beli baju untuk laki time Vday plak tuh!

Last2 perot dah lapar dah, aku call la member aku ajak makan, dia kate set je tadak hal, member kitorang yang lain yang secare kebetulan ada jugak kat situ nak join makan jugak. So skang ada 2 couple, aku sorang. Jadi pergilah kami ke restoran yang agak romantik di tengah2 shopping mall tuh. Aku pnah pegi restoran ni dulu, makanan memang banyak tak hengat laa dalam 1 set tuh dan sebab makanan banyak ni la aku dah start menyirap sket. 2 couple tu best la diorang share makanan, happy je makan2 bergurau senda, kutuk aku tak laku la, makan cuap cuap, damn! Aku pulak, naik merah mata aku duk cobe perabeh makanan tuh. Taknak perabeh kang , mende mahal, aku sayang duit aku woo.

Abes makan, abeh gelak tawa, aiseh, enset aku plak abeh battery, tapi diorang taknak balik lagi. Tak puas bermesra lagi tuu, nak main ice skating pulaak (aiseh kantoi sudah nama tempat shopping mall bila sebut ice skating nih). Nak bermesra punya pasal, perut penoh pon xde hal la nak skating2 nih. Takpe lah, aku biarkan jelah diorang, kang kate aku dengki pulak (T.T). Aku pon pergi la Machines pegi charge ipong aku kjap. Sambil2 tengah charge tu aku belek2 ipad, tak menarek pooon.

Pastu aku bukak main la pulak macbook diorang, memang best la kan, cam biase la. Pastu aku bukak safari, aku type url blog aku, kot2 ade orang lain bukak bleh la bace blog aku kan? HAHAHAHA. Haa, yang suka berniaga online tu bleh la ye guna pakai idea ni, g kedai komputer mana2, bukak komputer diorang, tulis url bisnes korang, kot2 ada rezeki ada la bisnesnye. Lepas dah bukak blog aku kat macbook tu, bila pikir2 lame lagi ni diorang nak abes ber-enjoy, then aku amek la kesempatan tu untuk menulis post ini. Korang percaye tak yang post ni ditulis time duk machine ni laa. Kasihan aku kan, lama punya tunggu member dating, siap boleh buat blog post lagi.

Haa, amacam story aku? Rasa rasanya apa perasaan orang foreveralone ni? Sedih ke, tersisih ke, picisan kecil ke? Haa yang tu korang interpret sendiri lah ape perasaan manusia2 jenis foreveralone nih. Tapi perasaan aku pulak macam mana? Aku tak pernah rasa aku ni foreveralone, tapi ramai je member2 duk kate begitu.

Haa, moh kite menjawab soalan sedari nufa tentang kebahagiaan saya di waktu ini.

**Ahem**

Well, the story above is actually 50% inaccurate and I will let your powerful mind decide which 50% part of the story is true. Well it happened but not all. Mostly the story is for the joking purpose only, that's why it is written in Malay because I feel stupid when I speak Malay. So how do I feel now? If you're active forumer in lowyat.net, you'll know how sad a foreveralone creatures are. People say I am foreveralone type. But I strongly believe I am not foreveralone.

I like my lifestyle now. I socialized too, a lot but controllable. If others like to spend money for their lover, I like to spend it on my car. If other's weekend was boring and they solve it by having their date with their partner, I stay at home and read storybooks, play games at home the whole weekend. While others like to show off their aweks or balaks, but for me I do feel proud hanging out with my friends. Others like praise how perfect and beautiful or handsome their partner, well, I just can't stop admiring myself LOL>. I have nothing to worry of being single all my life and interestingly somehow people around me can't stop worrying of why I never be able to end up the single status streak. So as for now, I can say I am tremendously happy of what I have now. I enjoy friends' hang out, I declare my car as my wife, if people told me to get a life I laid my car. So there's nothing to regret of being happy as I am now.

Look, life ain't about love only, there's something bigger than love. Vday is just a crap business plan you know. Look how blooming the gift shop at these days. People are hunting for presents just because they can't afford to miss the so called special day. Don't ask me out on this day because I'll be singing Deftones! Yeah!

Well if there is anything else you want me to story about me or about my cute car or anything else, you can proceed at this link.

Bittersweet

Life, I don’t understand life. I don’t know if you or anybody else understands it. I believe if a person understands his or her life, he or she shall succeed and life goes beyond far from their expectation. Some people look their life from science perspective (Albert Einstein), some might look into the tiny world of digital and microprocessor (Bill Gates), there are also certain people who understand life via many discipline of life such as mathematics, geography, and astronomy (Al Khawarizmi), and let say there is only one person whose understanding is far beyond ours, this person understand His Creator, His people, His life, and though he is illiterates, his preach is still moving now though it is started hundred years back. Well, let us take a moment to selawat to him, who is our own beloved Prophet Muhammad s.a.w.

These are the people who understand their life most. They knew how to make the chances, spot the chances, grab the chances and they utilise it wisely and they have become the greatest human in their life and through our life they are still remembered. But how do I understand my life, I still don’t know what am I in this life. All I know in my life is to always be happy and try not to be sad. Happiness is my everything and I know life isn’t supposed to be happy at all times.

I am happy to know that now I have someone special to love but sadly I don’t know is it real love or it is just a matter of pity? It is also unhappy to wonder whether my love is enough or not for her, or does she love me too or, I’m thinking if we are faking our feelings because both of us were in the state of ‘stirred mind’ before we met. And I still have this thought in my mind whether is this just a normal crush or not but I swear this ‘crush’ is a little bit different from others. Is it because this girl is braver than others that makes me ‘cair’ to her. Whatever it is, if this is just a normal crush, I can be me again without any problem but to say this relationship is nothing and has no effect on me it is the blackest kind of blasphemy.

Last week, I was quite happy to join my two friends’ family gathering. Well I was there accidentally and you know how weird to be part of somebody else’s family dinner because you don’t know anybody else there except your friend. Seeing how love between family still exist in this world despite of current issue of throwing out babies, killing children, killing parents, killing siblings, I am so grateful to be part of my friend’s family dinner though I don’t contribute anything to cheer up the dinner but I am happy because at least I was in the family reunion mood. Too bad, too sad, it is a very long time ago since I was with my family and I miss being home.

Too good, I am so happy I have great friends to accolifmpany me here in Shah Alam. I have a lot to thanks them especially those who are at the rented house, at UiTM, at class, the Safwan-Adil-Min-Jarir of MRSM Langkawi, at Neo Performance Club (promote skeet.. hihi), at Petaling Jaya, and not to forget at the Segi college too (though we hardly know each other, everybody are simply good friends). And because I was always with my friends, I always happy with them.

I am prone to be happy all the times but there were times when God tests, happiness is taken and sadness glooming. Life becomes bitter everyday and all He wants is us to remember Him and pray to Him for guidance. After that happiness will come again. That is why bitter is sweet. Setiap kejadian ada hikmahnya.

PS/ I wish my friends Good Luck in examinations!

This Is For Everybody

One of my new year resolution is to get my blog keeps updated. Now it is almost April and my resolution is having a gloomy future. Everything about my new year's resolution is getting into failure day by day. My blog, my life, my study, my family's hope towards me, everything is in uncertain.

Nothing is certain in this life, but at least we can plan our life and I still fail to plan my life.

Blogging is one of the most enjoyable thing I had done in my life. Everyday, I used to visit other's blog, my mind is always thinking what is next to update, my mind is full of ideas. I used to love blogging and now, I just loveD blogging.

But now blogging is not my priority anymore. If in the past my mind used to thinking about blogging, but today it is not anymore. I have something new in my life to think about. Yes, this thing is really enjoyable. This is my first time in my life. Yes, this is really my first time and I'm afraid. lol. But things still in gloomy state. "SHE" confessed, but I'm so young, I'm so naive, I am so flattered, so I said, 'relax'. But I always think about her.

Love is taking over blogging in my life. But love is something I never want to be certain. She wants love but I want to get laid don't have love in me.

This is what currently happened to me in this few days, few weeks ago. So this explain why updating is so rare right now. (Ape kaitan eh ngan aku tak update? macam xde kaitan, aah biarlah)

L.O.L.O.L.O.VE!!

Hi all, exam is over and now I'm in Kelantan already. If you miss me, kiss me through the phone ya, haha. Kidding.

he next day after back home, I was in Penang, sending my brother to Penang Matriculation, a place I used to study. The college had a lot of memories. It's the place where I found a cute girl. I use to have a crush on her but the friendship remains as a friendship. I never told her about my feelings toward her.

Speaking of love, I don't have any experiences. Whenever love struck, I just ignored it because for me, love is just a feeling. Well, that's me, I hope anybody who read this and have a life partner, I hope love that you're having is not for the sake of fun, but it is the love that guide you to heaven.

Being a Man

Being a man is never an easy job. No, it is not a job, it is a life! Living as a man is hard. There are millions of responsibilities you'll have on your back. There's a big gap between a man and a boy.

Being a boy is easy. Nothing to worry. You wake up from bed, asked about food, go kick a ball, ride your stabilized bicycle, and then asked for a drink. Well, that's so sweet right? But, the more you eat, the more you're aging. You won't stay as a boy forever. You're cathcing more, and more responsibilities.

Okey, looks like I've complained too much huh? Well, maybe I'm a little bit hormonal, that I guess. Haha. Well, I'm going to Shah Alam tomorrow. Back to my sweet like capacitors campus. It's a UiTM everybody. It's not I dislike being there, but, I dislike being apart from my family. Well, I'm a man in my house (xmalunyee). I did the laundry, I did the house sweeping, I helped my mum in the kitchen, I help my abah with the garden, I took care of my fever-ing grands. Look! There are too many responsibilities I had left behind! How can I leave just like that? Leaving nobody to take care of what I am leaving?

What I'm really concern is about my grands. Both of them are having a very high fever right now (I got mine from them, that I guess), so, who's going to take care of them? Really uneasy of this. I wish holiday is a month more.

After watching Super Sapien (Hellboy) story at TV3, there's a something-like-a-poem-to-me, it sounds like this (not 100% accurate):

"What makes someone into a man?

Is it how he lived, or

how he was thought? "

Hmm, for me, it is by experienced. This holiday thought me of what it takes to be a man. A responsible man. My parents had forced me to the max to learn and earn. Learn how to live and earn by myself. I didn't get money easily now, I need to work. Work for my parents lah. Well , it's good. I like it and it kind of sad and hard to leave all of this. I always like Kelantan as my place of living. Too calm and peace even you're living in the middle of town. Say, why I'm telling crapt? Tu la, kecil2 dulu xnak belajar, besar2 kan dah susah. So, never say being a man is easy, what else to be a superhero.

So, blogging will be dull, study is hard!

A Hope on Father's Day

Who wouldn't love their own father right? In this coming Father's Day, plans were made to celebrate this day, to show our appreciation to our father. Their sacrifices for the family is something you should not question about. He went to work early in the morning, and return almost at night, just to make sure you got everything to live in this world.

"Don't give him fish, give him the fishing rod"

When I was a kid, I once asked my father, if he claimed to work very hard so that I can live comfortably, then when I got it, why he should question about it? I mean, why should he speak about, "your life is too good" or "you're over pampered" or something like "when I was at your age, I had did this, done that" as he always wants me to live better than him. Well, I don't remember how he answered it but I remember, he can't answer it. But it's ok, I always knew he wants the best for me. Instead of giving me fishes, he gives me the best fishing rod ever for me.

But what happen to a father who works hardest, for their family, race, religion, and country, going very early in the morning and never returns at night? Yes, that's what happened to our ISA (Internal Security Act) detainees. They were detained because of something like 'to protect racial harmony and country security'. Says who? The government la. One morning they wake up besides their beloved wife kissing their child before going to work, the next day they wake up besides another detainees, nobody to kiss and jobless. Read here. So, what happened to their child? Did they get a good fish? Are they using a quality fishing rod?

It is time for government at least to repeal or at least revise the ISA as it is truly against the human rights. ISA allows person(s) to serve their time in prison without trial. ISA ruined our country. ISA ruined a family. ISA ruined a person. So on this coming Father's Day, besides cheering our own father, let us remember for those unlucky to celebrate with their father.

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Save Our Woman

Woman, as many know is considered 'weak' compared to man. Don't get me wrong, I mean, they are physically considered weak, compared to men. So, woman must be protected. That's why we have special ministry to help woman, a needy one to survive. Woman has so many specialities in life. Even Islam put woman right's at a very high priority. And God had bestowed woman with a Suraa, An-Nisa'. How virgin the woman is!

In Malaysia, woman had nothing less than man. Here, we have plenty of societies to help woman. You won't find any society who wants to help single father but there are plenty of societies and clubs who are willingly to help single mother. How special woman is.

Months ago, quoting a minister by saying that every woman who wants to travel out of this country, alone, must get permission from their family first. Look how serious we want to help our woman. But this idea was backlashes by our own Minister of Woman and (........) if I'm not mistaken . Seriously, man tried to protect woman.

To make us a proud man, recently, a group of Malaysian students had beat African students because of 'protecting' woman and the case still unclassified whether they are protecting the girls or just being jealous to African. Yeap, who says African don't have qualities. Haha. See, Malaysian men love our women. We won't let you go into any danger. However, there are plenty of men still abusing woman. Their mentality is at dinosorous' IQ level. They don't deserve a 9 months free stay in their mother's body.

RinG in against woman abuse and supporting Italy for Euro 2008!

Dear friends, please hear me

"people come into your life for a reason"

Lets talk about friends. They are strangers but still you can share your clothes with them. I don't know who is so creative to make the proverb above but when a stranger become your friend, he or she didn't come to take your clothes but to give a real friendship.

How did this strangers can be your friends? How did it start? At first impression you think that these strangers is not your type but at the end, you started making friends with them. How did this happened? I mean, how can you afford to talk to a stranger? Don't your mother always told you not to be kind to strangers? But making friends need you to be kind to strangers. But then, how can you told that these strangers are the correct one? How could you take those risky relationship.

But thank God, I hope you and me will never choose the wrong stranger. Haha, sounds crazy! It is our sixth sense who told us that this person is a good to make friend. And please get rid of those who can brings damage to you.

Okey, now you know how we make friends. Yeah everybody knows it. But please, please tell me how to find a perfect and right girl for me? I am 20 years old and still can't find the one. Seeing my friends happy with their own partner, I am still a lonely jerk. I am in such a desperation situation and I don't know how to handle this. God, please lead me.